My favorite tool was thing 21. I loved how easy this was and I can see so many ways to use this in my class (open house). I also really like delicious- oh the solution to my ADD. I have used mind meister to map out my last Brit Lit paper, it was a HUMONGOUS HELP!
The only thing I hated, HATED, about this project was constantly creating a new account here and there...I can't even remember my username or password for half of the tools. But it was a small price to pay for all that I gained.
Now here is where it gets mushy and gushy, but it's my blog and I can do that:
Thing 21 put my entire semester in perspective. Despite my best efforts, I got completely behind this semester (and the cruddy part is that everything that came up was out of my control- sick kid, hubby came home a week early, assignments getting pushed back or assigned out of left field, etc.) I was so overwhelmed and exhausted all of the past week, I was (still am) bummed that I knew I was going to be getting more Bs than usual and I was so ready to sleep.
So I get to the video creator and decide to kill 2 birds with one stone- make a video out of Zoe to send to all the grandparents so they will LEAVE ME ALONE for pictures. I love taking pictures, I will take 18 shots of Zoe in one sitting just for "the perfect picture," I secretly wish I was a photography major...tee hee! Well, I've been so dang busy this semester I haven't taken many pictures, and I was pulling from our summer trip to the beach, Sea World, and the day her dad left for deployment. Just rifling through the pictures I wanted to use was so emotionally draining- she had gotten bigger and smarter and her daycare teachers knew more about her than I did. And I have been right here the whole time, I just stayed too busy.
This was upsetting; when I'm not busy she seems to grow up fast then, too. But this is too fast.
So I have made a decision- I have already registered for next semester, so I am taking 15 hours next semester. But I was thinking- oh 3 summer school classes, then 15 hours next fall, student teach in the spring, then graduate.
No, No, NO NO NO NO NO!
When I graduate I will be even busier. I want to remember and take pictures of all I can right now, because the day when she is 11 and hates her mom is going to be here tomorrow. So I am adding more time onto my degree, and other than the fact that I will be 25 when I finally graduate from college, I am feeling really good about this.
In fact, I think I am going to go watch Zoe sleep, smell her hair, and thank the Good Lord that I realized what I'm missing before it was too late to change it.
2 comments:
I'll be 33 when I graduate, Lauren. And it's ok. :) For what it's worth, I think you're fantastically bright and fabulous, and I doubt that even if you watched your sweet Zoe 24/7, you would not still be sad. Being a mom is a bittersweet process- these babies of ours grow up to be complex, amazing little people, and it's so beautiful to watch them emerge into who they are going to be...but it's still so hard to let go...and it's still so hard to face how quickly time does move forward.
I don't want you to beat yourself up (and I have had similar guilty feelings myself this semester). I do, however, think you are right to follow your heart. :-)
I am glad I got to know you this semester. :*)
And then you will be a grandmother - and there is nothing better!
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